Monday, October 03, 2005
Phew.. my exams are finally over. It is a really tedious semester for us, it had really stretched me to the limits with all the endless projects and exams. We barely had time for revision. Even though the exams are over, but my grades would not be ideal as I was quite unprepared for the exams. I tried my v best, now jus have to hope there would be some kinda of moderations bah…
There still 1 week before the start of internship and many bad things had crop
up. My grandpa was admitted to the Alxendra Hospital. His condition was critical and is currently in the ICU. It was on the Friday that I visit him, after my Maths paper. I was quite relieved that I could finally take time off to visit him. But soon it wasn’t that pleasant after all, his condition was really quite bad. And it quite a disturbing scene for me. He was lying on the bed, unconscious through the use of some antiseptic. This is because his heart and lungs are failing even the oxygen tank is not of mux help. There are tubes inserted into his nostrils and this had caused quite a lot of discomfort in him that they had to put him to sleep at the moment. His heart is failing and they are installing a temporary machine to help him. His condition is not getting any better.I saw him on the bed, struggling hard even though in his unconscious state, I can feel the discomfort in him the tubes had and medication had caused his face and hands to become swollen. I was standing there helplessly; the chances of him recovering are very slim. He’s already 88, I am not sure if he can pass through this ordeal. It
has been tough for him all these years as he had slog his life taking care of my grandma. My grandma was a diabetic patient not only that at the age of 40+ she became blind. However, the worse had yet to come jus was she was in her 50’s she suffered from a stroke which restricts her from movement from the other side of her body. Her brain began to malfunction, she could not take care of herself, she can’t remember any of her kins, she can’t talk and my grandpa had to even put on diapers for her. This is what they often say a couple will always stand by each other through thick and thin. My grandma In other words she is a person without a soul jus an empty shell. She lies motionlessly on the bed everyday uttering strange words. It had been hard for my grandpa…. Now even my grandpa is in this state I feel so sorry for him when he was lying there on the bed. How I wish he could recover, but I know the chances are very slim. My mum had visited him just today and break another bad news that is my grandpa kidney is also failing. I knew from the moment the chances of survival is jus equals to 0. I refrain myself from visiting him because I hate to see the sight of him it’s makes us feel so helpless. And makes us feel so sad. But I guess even though how mux I hate to see him with his current state, I would still brace myself to go to visit him as I guess his days are numbered. I really wish that he could recover and we could celebrate CNY wif him every year. Without his presence, I guess every CNY would be very cold. Kinda of regretted that I always turn up very late during the CNY, because I always thought it was a boring celebration. But it is jus only once a yr, I should had make the extra effort.
I promised to visit him early the next yr and so on ……. But will I ever get the chance? I really really hope he can live through this and at least enjoy some “ qing fu “ b4 leaving this place. For I know after this incident all of the kins and his sons & daughters will cherish him even more than ever.